Caramel Crappe

I’m a fan of the saying, “kung mamamatay ka, mamamatay ka” (You die when you die). I long accepted the fact that we’ll never spend our lives forever with the people we loved, with the people we knew. My friends and I learned this the hard way when we lost our friend on a ridiculously stupid freak accident last 2008. I learned that no matter how luxuriously glorious our lives have been, one tick is all it takes, we can die any moment.

So I had a deal with myself, to do anything I like to do. Eat anything I like to eat, drink ’til I drop, spend all the money I’m earning with friends and family, things like that. I had a notion that I’d be prepared when it’s my time. What I am failing to prepare for are the ones I’ll be leaving behind.

Leandro was a good friend from Highschool. He’s one of the group of boys we hang out with then, and one of the coolest friends I had. Admittedly, he looks good, having said this no I don’t have a crush on him but most of my girl (gay) friends liked him. I admire his sense of justice, his sense of responsibility, of having the guts to be who he wants to be. And at the same time, he openly loves loved his mother and family. These qualities were his.

I don’t know why but everytime I think about Leyn’s death last 2008, I see Lea (as we conveniently call him) siding up with Leyn’s mom saying his condolences. A very sincere expression on his face. I may not had the same expression when I reached out for his mom last night, but truly I felt (still feeling) the loss.

“Death is inevitable” – [insert song here]

Bad things happen for a reason. You know wise words won’t stop the bleeding~

You were loved. And you will always be loved. Pero gago ka lang ba’t ka nagmadali papunta dyan sa kabila.  Happy trip Lea! :)